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Destination Manifestation: A Dance of Re-Membering

We mere mortals don’t come into this world fully formed and complete. Our entry into the living field is a journey, a process. Consciously or unconsciously, we spend our lives in a movement of manifestation as we progress toward some known or unknown identity, role, or expression of Self.

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Sacred Relationship: Living in Ayni

Sacred relationship. Two simple words that can have a profound and transformational impact on life when applied in the proper manner. Sacred relationship is an essential ingredient in order to create and sustain a stable and more harmonious way of living, which is what we all desire. The foundational piece to creating and making holy this interrelated way of being is …

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Embracing our Divinity: Thoughts on the Upper World

Previously, I wrote about the Ukhupacha (the Lower World) and the Kaypacha (the Middle World) in conjunction with teaching the corresponding weekends of the Pachakuti Mesa Apprenticeship Series. I recently co-taught the third weekend of the Apprenticeship series with my wife, Autumn. After delving into the other two worlds, we finally explore the Hanaqpacha.

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Grief – Grace – Gratitude

All journeys are unique when death comes calling. Grieving is individual and universal. One’s journey with death and grief is as distinct as a fingerprint, no two alike, yet the experience unites us like all the fingers of a hand.

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Holding Space: The Gift of Presence

The magnificent journey that we take in life as a human being can be heartbreakingly painful and beautiful at the same time and a bittersweet reminder of the fleeting time that we have on this Earth. But it also reveals to us the sweetness and perfection of our Soul..

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A Pachakuti Mesa Prayer for the Journey

  The Pachakuti Mesa altar ground is many things. Among them, it is map and mirror, clock and compass. My mesa has become my constant travel guide as I journey through this life. Growing up submerged in a society that pathologically prizes constant production and...

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Wisdom from the Mountain

Human beings have been drawn to sacred places on this lovely Earth for generations. To make a journey to where the soul calls is a deep-rooted tradition still followed by many. These places of raw power remind us of our true nature, of the wild and untamed parts of ourselves that don’t often get much expression because of the responsibilities we carry in our daily life.

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Ofrenda: A Love Offering

One simple gesture, the K’intu – enough, nothing and everything. I am a prayer walker in this world and in all worlds offering a simple K’intu, speaking from my heart as an invitation to unite all that I love. I’m walking a beautyway path of service to all...

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On Suffering and the Kaleidoscope of Love

“Try to exclude the possibility of suffering which the order of nature and the existence of free wills involve, and you find that you have excluded life itself.” I wish I could write this post somehow in celebration of suffering, but suffering may only be accounted...

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Initiation: Claiming Power from Our Past

As daughters and sons of Pachamama, our birthright is a marvel, and it is ours for the claiming. We can live upon planet as radiant wonders of loving beauty and do so in peaceful balance with All Our Relations. Our walk in life can be a dance of magic and mystery…

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Embracing Darkness, Gathering Light

Om Klim Kalika yei Namaha… I chanted it again and again over an impromptu fire lit in a tin in the back yard. Fueled by the first coffee I’d consumed in years and all the anger it took to break the floodgate of feelings I hadn’t known were in me, the mantra rumbled...

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Shadowplay

In the deeply angled sunlight of an Autumn afternoon, two farmers wearing overalls and baseball caps hang by their necks from an old oak tree at the crossroads where we turn to reach the campground. They’re dummies of course, it’s close to Halloween; I try to be amused, pondering this peculiarly American holiday, a time when Shadow is allowed out to play. “It’s healthy”, I think, “an opportunity to laugh in the face of what’s loathsome.” It’s a skill, I conclude, I lack.

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Vista: Re-Membering to Trust

As an aspiring adept, I was moved to write this article out of a desire to be honest about an intense personal struggle that stirs a sense of inadequacy. In the Pachakuti Mesa Tradition of Cross Cultural Shamanism, one’s vista plays a crucial role …

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Medicine for An Age of Endless Ache

It has been one year since I first chanted the directions and breathed into my new altar the intention to walk as a mesa carrier in the Pachakuti Mesa Tradition. Two years since I was Reiki attuned. Three since I first experienced energy healing and shamanic...

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One Sixth Will Do

In PMT training we are taught our mesa is a reflection of us. It is a physical representation of the non-physical world. It is a living organism. Not only does it reveal our unique individuality, but it reflects our energies, patterns, and beliefs; it provides guidance and presents us with indications of things occurring on a subconscious level.

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The Gathering of the Mesas

Three years ago, we in the Heartland Ayllu – the local Kansas City community of the Pachakuti Mesa Tradition – decided to start our own tradition. It is common practice within an ayllu to hold community Link Up ceremonies on Wednesday nights, often once a...

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Holy Terror

Dancing in the Dark, I’ve been firming up, digging deep into what lies below. The threads that weave this journey are dark blues, purples and deep red – the color of congealed blood. It’s a moody hue, but it’s flecked with glittering threads and mirrors too.

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Slow Down

Standing in Georgia O’Keefe’s art studio in Abiquiu, New Mexico, I was in awe at the beauty she painted. O’Keefe’s New Mexico landscapes were part of my everyday life growing up. Her paintings were on my mother’s posters, calendars and big open books on...

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Frustration, Hopelessness, & the Dance of the Mesa

Along our individual journeys and our collective one toward ultimate healing for ourselves and the planet, we are bound to encounter frustration. Yet finding this work, and understanding that we truly do hold power to create positive shifts on the more subtle levels with our mesas and intentions – this provides hope.

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Invitation to Ghost Child from a Home Fire

Crying over a mess of herbs and alcohol stirred into an inert slop before my mesa, shedding tears on the wreck as though they might be the secret ingredient to right this botched attempt at alchemy, my body heaved out a liquid history of cynicism, mind collapsing to match the mess like a tapestry unraveled at the tug of a single thread.

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Ritual is a Technology

The power of the ritual is calibrated by our ability to surrender. When we do the steps, even if we have resistance, we’re letting go more. It rewires us. Ritual is a technology? Yup. Technology rewires us? Yup. There are studies that show how being...

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The Sweetness of the Sting

Just recently my family and I vacationed to some sites up north, one of them being the Indian mounds in Aztalan, Wisconsin. While the kids were off playing in the woods my wife and I sat on top of the mounds, a stepped ziggurat which operated as the tribe’s prime ceremonial center. Yet…

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The Mesa 101

Despite how far you go with something you must always revisit the basics, to reinforce your foundation. With the mesa it is no different.

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