In PMT training we are taught our mesa is a reflection of us. It is a physical representation of the non-physical world. It is a living organism. Not only does it reveal our unique individuality, but it reflects our energies, patterns, and beliefs; it provides guidance and presents us with indications of things occurring on a subconscious level.

I have seen this relationship demonstrated repeatedly in the 10+ years I have been a mesa carrier, even in the very first mesa I created. I had been to a workshop with Oscar and decided I was ready to commit to this practice. I excitedly, yet reverently, constructed my simple mesa and then…it sat.

And sat.

I wasn’t sure what to do with it or how to interact with it on a daily basis. I wasn’t clear what all the “rules” were. I wanted to make sure I followed the rules because honoring the tradition was important to me.

And then one day it struck me – this is what I do in life. I was afraid to experiment; afraid to just dive in and try; afraid to risk mistakes. I was a slave to the rules. My mesa was mirroring me from the moment I constructed it. It was a humbling and powerful lesson.

But the most astonishing example of this symbiotic human-mesa relationship occurred this past May. I had conducted a workshop to which I always bring a selection of sacred items to construct an altar. In a rare event, one of my healing artes wanted to come with me that day, my Inti Rumi. This is a piece that holds solar or masculine energies. My Inti Rumi was a pyrite sun disc. It wanted to be used as a talking piece while participants shared their experience from the day.

During one person’s check-in, I noticed myself becoming distracted, concerned the piece was going to break. The thought was so strong it kept me from being present, and I had to repeatedly bring my focus back. The piece did not break and was handed to the next person. When she completed her check-in, however, without thinking, she tossed the arte across the circle to the person who would go next.

As I watched it arc through the air, I knew it was going to break. In the space of half a second I panicked, tensed up, cussed in my head, got angry, realized it was happening for a reason, let go of attachment, relaxed, and smiled a knowing smile as I watched it land on the floor…and break into six pieces.

I’ve been around the shamanic block enough times to know that this was a significant occurrence. And while I didn’t know precisely what was being communicated to me, I graciously assured the woman it was okay and I wasn’t mad.

Coincidentally (not!), there were six participants in the workshop. So I allowed each person to take home a piece. And I went home with 1/6th of my original masculine arte.

I placed the fractured medicine piece back on my mesa knowing the significance of the event would reveal itself in time.
The next day a good friend came over to visit. She had returned from working with one of her energy teachers out of state, and when she walked through the door, I hardly recognized her! The woman she worked with shared lost teachings on the art of being feminine…from how we run our energy through our body as women, to how we manifest, to how we interact with men. These themes so resonated with me that I was instantly activated! As my friend continued to share her transformation with me, my body lit up with an inner knowing that I was entering an initiation. I knew I was to receive these teachings.

My friend and I are both very “masculine” women. Living in a patriarchal society, we have learned how to essentially “become men” in our way of thinking and acting. Even though we have both spent many years consciously facilitating “women’s” work, practicing conscious equal partnership, and being portals for divine feminine energies, there are still insidious ways in which patriarchal and unhealthy masculine programming has kept us from our natural state of being. Of course, I realize I am speaking for many women as I say this.

My friend generously shared a few of the teachings and ran me through a couple of the body practices. Viscerally, I felt an immediate shift in my energy. My entire being softened into what I knew was to become a new normal for me. These teachings were the key I needed that I didn’t even know I was searching for.

I committed to working with my friend on an ongoing basis to steep myself in these lost feminine teachings. We giddily embraced as she left and then each went on with our day. Later that evening when I passed by my mesa, my Inti Rumi caught my eye. And then, the air exploded.

HOLY $#%&! I couldn’t stop saying it. Jumping up and down, my mouth agape, the air electric, the meaning of the previous day’s event dropped sharply into focus. I was stunned.

I. Had. Come. Home. With. 1/6th. Of. My. Masculine.

Less than 24 hours later I learned an entirely new way to re-balance my masculine and feminine energies, releasing the overabundance of force and reclaiming the power of receiving. This is the most amazing occurrence of foreshadowing I have ever witnessed!

It never crossed my mind to connect these two events – the broken arte and the lost feminine teachings – until I walked by my mesa. I sprinted to the phone to call my friend and tell her my epiphany. She laughed heartily and said, “Well, Steph, it looks like Spirit is telling you that you only need 1/6th of your masculine moving forward.”

The wisdom of the mesa endures.

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Stephanie Red Feather

Stephanie Red Feather

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Stephanie Red Feather is a soul wisdom excavator. Through experiential workshops, wisdom teachings, private facilitation, and initiatory processes, Stephanie helps you find your truth, trust your heart, and own your spiritual authority. She has been supporting seekers in their spiritual journeys and personal transformation for over 11 years.

Her specialties include shamanism, embodiment, divine feminine mysteries, life as an empath, Shamanic Breathwork™, Shakti life force, inner authority, masculine/feminine balance, shadow work, energy healing and Reiki, and Voice Dialogue.

Stephanie is a Magdalene High Priestess and facilitator of the Priestess Process™. She is a certified Shamanic Breathwork™ facilitator and ordained shamanic minister through Venus Rising Association for Transformation as well as a certified spiritual healer through the International Assembly of Spiritual Healers and Earth Stewards. Stephanie holds a Doctoral Degree in Shamanic Psycho-Spiritual Studies and has been a practitioner in the Pachakuti Mesa Tradition for over 11 years.

In addition, Stephanie is a writer and prolific creator of programs and materials including Earth Embodiment School™, the Shamanic Dance of Transformation, Soul Check-In, the Embodiment How-To Manual, and How to Make Decisions with Your Heart: A Guided Meditation. She is preparing to publish her first book on being an evolutionary empath.